You may have beat my body

but you did not win the fight

You may have made me feel small

but I realize now that small people do big things

You may feel like you did nothing wrong

but I’m not the one that hides their past

You may feel relief now, when you look in the mirror

but even I don’t hate you the way you hate yourself

You may have taken away the joy of Miss H’s first few months

but I’ve had the joy of the last 10 years to make up for that

You may have tried to break me down during my pregnancy with Miss D

but I build myself up each night when I tuck her in, safe and sound

You didn’t chase me away

I left you behind, pathetic and angry

You might think you can beat me

but your hate and violence took away your humanity. Not mine.


2 responses »

    • cathartic, most of my posts lately have been private… looking forward to this whole thing being over and being able to blog properly again. It’s hard when you feel like the one person in the world you don’t want to know what you’re thinking might be reading your every word.

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