as it tends to do
we adjourned until Oct 7
waiting for children’s lawyer to get involved
explained why this whole mess is scary for kids
judge thinks ‘6 year gap, how do you close that’ and ‘this is ridiculous, waste of time’ and ‘don’t care what OCL thinks, the courts job is to make judgments based on well being of children, meeting with dad scares them, therefore, not in best interest of kids’
the lawyer looked angry that I spoke about the last official ‘access’ in May of 2005 when the ex showed up at oldest H’s birthday party, made a scene, became aggressive and threatening and had to be asked to leave… I don’t care.
as long as I tell the truth I feel confident that the court needs to hear it, regardless of how the lawyer or the ex feel
i still have no representation.
i’m clearly surviving without it. i’m not losing sleep over it yet.
i hate when court appoint duty council assists and automatically assumes the because you don’t have a lawyer yet, you must be stupid.
they usually stop assuming that and attitudes towards me from duty council change quickly when I speak my mind intelligently.
i’m smart. i just am and that’s how it goes. i’m not ashamed of it and it’s helped me out in life so far. my grades were in the high 90s for a reason and that reason sure as hell wasn’t studying.
anyway. nothing changes, girls still don’t have to meet biodad/the ex. waiting for formal appointment of lawyer for them
wondering why ex is pressing forward despite many statements from the court that this is a waste of time
clearly the ex doesn’t get that even the interviews with the lawyers and clinical investigators could be damaging.
i guess at the end of the day, that’s what the ex is about.
no concern for other, pressing ahead to fulfill own needs despite hurting others
nothing changed except the wardrobe and the name.
other thing i’m waiting for didn’t arrive. not the end of the world, will likely show Monday